So I am going to be honest here. I definitely created this blog while high on pain meds after having all four of my wisdom teeth extracted. Why am I telling you this? Well, I was thinking of coming on here today to take down the blog and act like it never happened. I have been wanting to create one for about five years now but couldn’t muster up the courage to actually do it. See, I have crippling anxiety when it comes to putting myself out there like this. I am sure many can relate to this feeling, but I have been managing this part of my anxiety quite poorly while managing other parts well enough to live a little. I have had some traumas in my life that have created a bunch of anxious thoughts that like to steer me off course and I kept sugar coating these moments because I know many people have lived through worse. However, as I have been learning over the years, each person is affected differently, regardless of the “level” of trauma, due to many factors and none of them being you are weak. Anyway getting off topic again, sorry, we will touch base on this again in the future. As I was saying, I have never been able to actually create this blog of my dreams because I still am not confident in almost everything I say, do, or feel. Apparently all I needed was percocet courage and a blog just appeared. Having said all this, probably unnecessarily too, thanks to the encouragement of a couple of special people in my life I have decided to keep this little drug induced blog. Who knows, could be fun. Hell, could even be therapeutic and just get me through this turbulent spot in life. Just a little bit of added chaos on my way to unlimited growth.